Eating disorders are hell on their own, but dealing with one during the holidays adds an extra emphasis of anxiety that most people are unfamiliar with.
While I have been in remission of my own eating disorder for a couple of years now, I still have thoughts that arise almost daily, attempting to convince me to fall back into destructive habits.
And I can vividly recall the stress and unhappiness of dealing with my own eating disorder during the holidays.
For such a wonderful time of year, the holidays can prove to be quite challenging for people dealing with an eating disorder. Endless food, most of which is, in the disordered mind, rich with calories, fat, and struggle.
You feel the temptation when scanning the dinner spread on Christmas Eve or Day, and as badly as you wish to quiet the voices in your head telling you not to eat more calories than normal, you succumb to their power, and settle for a few slices of turkey, some veggies, and maybe a scoop of potatoes.
Perhaps you’re bulimic, and you eat your fair share of delicious Christmas dishes, only to visit the bathroom after you’ve finished eating and force it all back out.
You may encounter friends and family questioning you about your appearance. You’re too thin, you need to eat more, you can afford it with your metabolism … you’ve probably heard it all, however, these comments tend to only intensify the situation in your own mind.
Unless you have experienced these disordered thoughts yourself, it is extremely difficult to comprehend their persuasion and intensity. They always win, these thoughts, and in the process make a person feel weak because they’re unable to suppress their power.
If you’re someone struggling with these exact thoughts, please feel free to comment down below, with your email address, so we can chat. If you suspect someone in your family is struggling with an eating disorder, give them their space. The only person who is capable of overpowering their eating disorder is the person suffering from it. Be patient, understanding, and offer an ear, if anything. If they wish to open up to you, they will.